The current and the future.

Seems like my way of doing things are learning hands on. I'd rather sift through jobs and have bomb resumes than going to school to work my way up. I'll learn the basics of leading in a retail environment while I get my own business started. I'll talk to awesome entrepreneurs along the way to get me going hopefully. I will probably pursue both at the same time at some point. Days like today are/may be the turning point shifts in goals. I'm just as equally enthusiastic about opening my own store as I am about graphic design or any kind of art. Educating myself on what I want to do in business while getting hands on with the real job sounds like a good and more down to earth, do-able plan for me!

I wanna

I wanna be a:

Tea Shop Owner

Make Up Artist

More Frequent Model

A Really Good Shift Supervisor

Graphic Designer

Artist

I'm a model

Aspiring make up artist

Analogue photography enthusiast

Graphic Designer

Dwindling digital photographer (for now)

I like editing my website and updating my portfolio.

I'm hoping to make it in my dream industry,

while I work a job that satisfies me in other ways.

Can't say I'm not content.

Novemberrr

I want to get back into Dreamweaver! I want to be completely educated on the things I went to school for! Mostly, I want to know how to work all the Adobe Creative Suite programs to the best extent. I'm a digital media enthusiast and I want to keep pursuing it, but my problem is I want to do too much instead of putting all of that energy into one subject. I'm glad Adobe has a campus in Seattle :) But Dreamweaver should start coming in handy cause I really want to move my website shenanigans over to Dreamweaver from iWeb. iWeb is ghetto.

Speaking of ghetto, my nightmares with Walgreens are over soon. Today or tomorrow is my last day. After that, I want to completely avoid everything about Aurora Ave. What a misfortune Walgreens was in my life partially. I'm glad I've gotten this far with keeping the job but aside from that, I didn't grow, I didn't get health insurance, and I made less the whole time than I did at my last job.

I feel pretty comfortable with where I am going.

I'm not complaining as much about not getting enough sleep as someone who's going to school. I get to sleep in til 2 cause the bed doesn't want to let me go, especially if I'm sleeping in it with my love. If you are working for your money, and decide that as your lifestyle, instead of jumping into debt, neck deep, there isn't really anything to worry about. With this step, I will be guaranteed a job, not with a degree, but with experience. I can't complain as much about lack of time in the day. Life is how you make it.

I'm not going to college, I'm too busy learning.

I fucking like it this way.

Admitting the final stage of denial: Letting Go

When you're 22, it's easy to bend yourself out of shape over school, or no school for that matter. Most people around my age have graduated or are in school. I admit that I was academic at some point, for a long time. I've also admitted that Lately, by having a life, it's challenging to even pencil myself in for school anymore. When I was in school, I realized that all of what I'm doing is getting in the way of what I really wanted to do with my life. I'm also usually never satisfied with my current situation. I'll feel like I'm missing out when I'm in school and not in school. But I did admit to myself today that I am taking the right steps in my life to get what I want, and it's okay that I'm not in school. As it has always stood, I'm not like them, and my lifestyle shouldn't reflect theirs. I shouldn't have to feel important cause they do when they get their doctor degrees and teacher jobs. I REALLY NEED TO GET THIS JOB THOUGH! A really good paying job by my side, pff, some people who go to college will end up making just as much, a little more, or less than me when they graduate. And Unlike them, I saved all my money this whole time, while they're in debt all the way up to their neck. I'll get to make a lot of money by being a responsible young lady, holding down a job that's just right for my age to prove a bit more of authority than I have been for 22 years. This will in turn, give me freedom to do the THINGS I LOVE, in my free time.

A blue-collared artist will do it for me in this lifetime.

School of life

I'm in the school of life and these years are as equivalent as yours are. My colleagues may or may not have went to college for what they're pursuing, but they're happy, and they make bank. I also know of people who went so many years to school to realize that afterwards, they're making minimum wage, paying off their loans. I'd rather jump on a decent paying job now, avoid debt now and later, and enjoy what I like to do. In this economy, seriously. All I need is to wake up early for school or a job. In the real world, I get to choose what time to wake up, not them.

xoxo